Why do I Strongly Desire a Female Companion?

The mind, in such craft and chaos, there isn’t any part of it which would not overwhelm me. In fact, each day is nothing but a terrain of new and open emotions trying to encircle our lives such dramatically. With such sophistication on the rise, the desire to have someone beside you is of one that is mesmerizing- inside the mind which has just started exploring the rays of life. And to the dismay, what is this idea that so bitterly haunts me each day, the desire to have a female companion in my life.

I have been trying to understand the nature of my own desires, and with it, the rays of harmony which humanity seems to have been presented me with. Falling in love is one of the most splendor feelings that a person can encounter in his/her lifetime. And as each wave summits, a part of life seems to be directed towards it, there is no denying it. My desires, and for humanity on the shoreline, I wish to understand the nature of such cravings and longings, that if unfulfilled, I can die of starvation.

I will be very frank with you because I too have strong desires for a female companion in my life. Someone whom I could love, one who loves me back and is there for me in times of joy and my days of grief as well. Her scent pounding into the center of my heart, her touch exquisite like diamond and her smile conforming only to the stars. The girl of my imaginations, I do not have one and it is making me depressed.

Relationships have become so casual today, and for my introverted mind to find solace in another being, well I think that I really need that connection with a person, not just a casual thing but an intimate linkage, one that inspires me to become a better person in this short span of life. I think, sometimes I have to stop, for the art of my desires are exceedingly unbearable, or is it just my mind playing untimely games with me. I want to understand, with the touch of a girl, the rays that will overwhelm me such frantically, the moment may shake a universe or write itself a new sonnet such sedated yet comforting.

She would be my light, in each darkness that tries to take over me, hold my hands and whisper that we were leaving. Her voice, such soft and sincere, her skin such luminous and her face such expressive. She loves me like nothing on earth ever did, and I- well there isn’t much to life if it weren’t for this moment. I wish, for her never to leave, and as each second gets closer to destiny, all I want is to lie beside her and never let go.

But to the reality, she always leaves with another guy and all the flowers have long been dead. There is no shade, the scent is now a graveyard and my mind is nothing but a playground of dead leaves. And still, I sit here, beside the mistletoes of November, asking for nothing but the touch of a woman who will forever change my world. The desires to have a female in my life is such strong, and as each day gets closer to rejection, ah…all I could wish for, is to be loved just once before I fade away.

-Yogesh Chandra